(no subject)

i am anguished. its not fair to my family and not good for my self esteem or confidence.
dont talk to me about Saddam, either or our leadership.

later - feeling better than this am. thanks to all for the love and support.
deep breath.
great day with gus - blew si away with his early xmas goodies!!!!!
listening to just damn good music and now its time to chill.