rebound headache

bad migraine yesterday and sick as fuck today. rallying at the moment. want to get going in the world. i have meetings and friends and work and life to live. my god, i am sick of this. i have to get beyond this and through this bit. it seems like i am getting these nasty ones every 4 weeks, with smaller ones weekly. have stopped taking the motrin as it seems to prolong the rebound/remnant headaches. that helps, but i just would like to be pain free. want to go see a chiro, but i just dont have the money right now. i know why people get suicidal with these things. i just wanted oblivion yesterday and this morning i just begged for unconciousness. Taking a shower is a huge goal in the next hour. getting my shit together, make up hair, etc. and then pour myself into the car and off to a meeting. i know i will feel more myself in a few hours. its just touch and go at the moment. poor simon - he just looks at me with that worried look. damn we are just getting into a good place. if my health would just hold up!
we went hiking last week, i worked out almost every day, we were great and now this bad episode. its exhausting beyond belief. i dont want the meds anymore, they just make me dull and stupid.
big sigh. at least i could eat this AM...
here we go