well, well

made simons fav white trash dinner - tuna cassarole, but he came home with a horrible fever! took care of him and put him to sleep. poor baby. so much stress on him right now - want to make the worry go away.
me? i have had fun fucking around on the internet today. had a great phone conference and actually was productive.
we had our walk all over SM this am and i hope we keep doing that - its really a great way for us to start out the day.

so this is funny - clicked through a link from a new friend:

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how strange is this>?
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signs and portents

often these days i wake up thining of what i want to post in my journal. the song that i heard first this morning was by eric burdon. this is a good sign. he is from newcastle and so is my husband.
rained last night. all fresh smelling today.
I love my mother. had a long talk with her last night about what is really going on with us, the big changes we chose and how we get so scared about careers and work. she was just amazing. i talked to her about being a middle aged woman in a youth culture(most of the time i feel like i am 17, but lately i have gotten dragged way down. i felt released after i spoke with her.
simon got a disappointment yesterday in that he did not get a job he thought he had a lock on. he was way over qualified - its an arts organization. i really think the ED was intimidated by his background and experience. bitch. this really hurt him and i had such a bad reaction to it. we had started the day bright and early by walking about 3 miles together in a part of our town that neither one of us knew. it was grand. i worked hard, had a headache, so i rescheduled my meetings for today and then when the disappointment happened, we rallied. its pretty funny - we both had a bad job week and we went to our respective 'churches' if you will. i went to a yoga class and simon went to a double bill of 'The Maltese Falcon'.

i also talked to my girlfriend Renee about it all. it seems like alot of folks are struggling these days, but not to be silly, we do have each other and we have so much love and laughter, we have to remember that. we wont be judged on our jobs, most of us, but want to be remembered by our love for each other. by our funny little quirky interests and our laughter. thats what i want to leave behind anyway.

my mom told me that she had dealt with being an older woman in a youth-obsessed culture a couple of time - i remember on of them - trying to find a purpose after my sis and i left home. i kinda am going through the same thing, as blake is off on his own. i do have a new marriage though. but i am definitely in search mode.
anyway in the words(i THINK) of holly golightly - she lived HOPEFULLY ever after.