fucking horrible weekend

i DID have a great dinner with Blake last night -that saved us from complete dispair.
our car got broken into(IN the garage) and totally tossed. the great stereo i got simon for xmas last year, gone with about 60 cd's. Simon got pissed and stayed that way - the police, what can they do? our landlord? fix the garage door. today we will see what our insurance options are. this triggered a fight between simon and i which does not bear going into, but ended with me crying on the floor like a little kid and his anger raging on about this country, about not being in control of his life, about not working.

I know this country has its problems, i know things are tough for us financially, but we are getting by! i am just whipped by all of this. i know my son knew something was up last night - he kept looking at me and asking if i was ok.

Simon needs some validation from someone/something other than me. again, i dont want to go into the details but its just so hard for him at the moment and i dont want him to give in to his anger.

i will keep a positive outlook. i do not care how corny it seems. we will beat this.