strange days

even though we are going through the motions, its like swimming through a muddy river in a dream. listening to the radio. had to turn it off. Simon pottering around hanging lamps, getting ready for our company. i need to leave him alone when he is doing his thing. i get on his nerves. but its an edgy time. i cant believe we will wake up to a war. its a rough thing. haven't we learned anything? i just can't be resigned to this. i can't.
long sigh. tears will be plenty tonight i think.