misery

had a fucking migraine for 2 days. worked through it yesterday til 5, came home, puked and took some meds. slept til midnight and then up til 2.
worked all day today til 7:30 i am grateful for this new job, but it is definitely a grinder. tons of photo shoots, details, gotta make sure nothing falls through the cracks. some of the people are nice enough, but lets face it - its not my crowd. glad i have thick skin and have the maturity to let things slide off my back. we made an offer on a house, didnt get it, but god did we stress putting the offer in. i am so chicken shit scared about this, but i cannot bear to give our money to a landlord anymore.

whipped. bath then bed. simon made great tofu sauce with rice and peppers. i have not been able to work out since sunday. i am not kidding - i dont get out of work until 7 or 8 most nights.i am going to balance the books and see if i can afford a massage or a facial. i could use it. would really like to feel pretty.

loving having that son at home. on the weekends i cook for all of us, we hang out a little, he does his own thing and he is getting healthier. skinny little fucker! he looks like trent reznor right now. geez.

simon, you are the love of my life. taking care of the house paperwork, answering the phone when i am sick and you cleaned the kitchen today. thank you so much darling....

wish i had hours for LJ like i used to, except with tons of money. i want some of these dolls so bad: www.octobereffigies.com
time to melt. hot tub with bath salts from avalanche....