guess its hormonal or the weather, or who knows, but its been really nasty. several days off and on - today was clear. last night was ok until about 8...then it was hard. i did go work out today, which was lovely. we went for a long walk yesterday and that was great fun. good yard sales and laughs. we saw a darling condo today that we both liked. will probably put an offer in.
the REAL problem is the depression. i am so down. no reason - Blake is getting better(although at the moment he is on the couch, dead tired - going back to the doctor tomorrow - we will get him healthy before he moves to Nashville, by every breathe i have), simon is in school, my work is fine. its just a sinking thing - along with the headaches, just an awful dark cloud of futility. Dread.
will be glad when this is done.
Blake went to see a therapist yesterday too - his dad set him up.he said it was good, but he is so depressed too. the world is heavy with it all. I cant worry any harder about him. at least i know that there arent drugs and that there are plenty of friends around him and he loves the music still...
the REAL problem is the depression. i am so down. no reason - Blake is getting better(although at the moment he is on the couch, dead tired - going back to the doctor tomorrow - we will get him healthy before he moves to Nashville, by every breathe i have), simon is in school, my work is fine. its just a sinking thing - along with the headaches, just an awful dark cloud of futility. Dread.
will be glad when this is done.
Blake went to see a therapist yesterday too - his dad set him up.he said it was good, but he is so depressed too. the world is heavy with it all. I cant worry any harder about him. at least i know that there arent drugs and that there are plenty of friends around him and he loves the music still...